I keep taking classes and of course, I learn so many new things but I know in my heart eventually I have to stop and just jump off the cliff. My imagination is already starting to work on it's own. I dream of dolls I want to make, my own dolls. No longer copying someone else's work....how bad is that!
I painted with oils from the time I was twelve years old, researched and learned every technique. I got so good I could copy just about anyone who ever painted, even the Masters. I would have people just pick a picture from a magazine and was able to copy it exactly, colors, style, you name it but never had the courage to actually paint one of my own. I promised myself with the dolls it would be different. I have to know if I have real talent. I need to venture on my own. Of course I keep telling myself it's not time yet, there is a lot I need to learn but that is due to my insecurities. I see people who can't do half of what I already do and they take off and make amazing dolls. They even show up in doll magazines.....Soon, maybe real soon!
This is from a class I took on aforartistic.com, a class by Elena Loukianova, Odaca artist.
